Just Between You and Me

When Obama endorsed marriage equality…

whenobamaendorsed:

… I just felt like I was excited, I felt relaxed, and:

(with the best of friennnnnnnnnds)

My Yoga Mantra

Starting in a Mountain Stand, with my hands in prayer position, I try to concentrate on my breathing, and consider the instructor’s suggestion that we clear our minds and use a personal yoga mantra to aid us in our journey. Yoga may be about connecting to yourself, body and soul, but as I bend my torso down, and hang in a standing forward bend, I find that I cannot let go of the tasks waiting for me at the office just a floor above from where I am. While I am supposed to be completely relaxed with a blank mind I can’t help but have visions of the good, the bad, and the ugly running through my mind.

I think about the fact that I overslept this morning, was 20 minutes late to work, and as a result will need to leave class early. Something I find completely rude and even more disturbing in a yoga class.

I think about how the Vice President as at the office today, and I don’t want to be late getting back because she scares the shit out of me. She recently fired someone after their first day on the job.

So, as I exhale and move into a lunge position, with my chin up and my heart open wide, I say to myself my new yoga mantra:

Fuck them all

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My Personal Zeitgeist…

After not logging in for more than a month I present you with my homework. There are a few bits that I found funny enough to post here. 

Yesteryear

I was born and raised in southern California shortly after my parents moved here from Mexico. I am the oldest of 7 children. I find this an interesting point to make, as this fact identified who I was for many years. I even chose to attend college in state versus going away to school in Boston. Not, that I feel my education was subpar by any means. I was raised very humbly, seeing as we didn’t have much money in my youth. My parent’s raised us to value and take pride in our work and above all family.

As a child everything was categorized to either “I would love that” or “no way Jose.” “No way Jose” was designated for vegetables, speaking in front of the class, scary movies, and the color pink. Oh, the color pink. Since my sister Liz and I are only 13 months apart, my mother often/always dressed us in matching outfits to the point that we were often confused for twins. And just like with twins my mother could never remember which one like what. I didn’t like pink, but Liz couldn’t get enough of it. Yet somehow most/all of our matching outfits had Liz in the blue shorts and white butterfly top, while mine had the same top paired with pink shorts. It was the 90’s so there were a lot of Lycra shorts and oversized tops, so even if my mother could have gotten the colors right it would still be embarrassing to see the pictures now.

“I would love that” was meant for Power Rangers, reading, arts & crafts, and above all else playing dress up. I must admit that that Lycra short/t-shirt outfits were my favorite thing to wear as a kid, but then again I have always been partial to utilitarian outfits.  I loved dressing up in cool outfits, and preppy clothes, but comfort was essential for everyday wear. Something, I have held on to this day, though I have gone through my fair share of “fazes”. In high school I dressed myself like a hippie/bohemian for 2 years. There was a lot of browns, flowers (embroidered and otherwise), and tons of makeup experimenting. Not just “I want to look pretty makeup,” but also a lot of makeup that would have worked out better on stage. Lady Gaga had nothing on me.

Around this time

I consider life from late 2006 and forward to be the present. It may sound broad, but I’m still working through a lot of the same issues, and still trying to find out just who I am going to be. I ditched the makeup and clothes once school became the focus of my existence. This is where my uniform of T-shirt, jeans, Chuck Taylors paired with a cardigan was born. Utilitarian to the max. I genuinely think it suits me. When I at school it was usually a UCLA t-shirt or sweatshirt, very school spirited of me. This works for me, and my no nonsense type of lifestyle. Looking cute takes too much work for me to do it on a daily basis. However, because I have always had a flare for the dramatic, dressing myself outside of my uniform usually means that the outfit will consist of at least one piece that I am especially happy with. Like, an electric blue coat, or an eye catching pair of earrings or shoes. It’s usually because of my jobs that I stay so casual in my everyday life.

A lot has changed in my tastes since I was a kid. I am very open to trying new things. Vegetables are now friends. I have miraculously been able to keep some real friends, even best friends, though most people found me nice but a little weird in my earlier years. I have embraced and owned my quirky at times odd personality. I’m still a big reader, but I also have a taste for Film and Television.

To infinity and beyond

It’s a little difficult for me to discuss the future, as I’m still trying to figure that out. When I was younger I always thought I would become a doctor one day, or work in television. It is an indecision that I still have to this day. I think it’s a little late for Medicine, but they say it’s never too late for anything. I’m currently working on my plan to move out of my parent’s house and back to LA which my best friend has decided to call home. I miss living on my own, and feel that this sort of complete self reliance will finally give me what I’m looking for. Besides, I can’t stand living with my sisters. It is time to let go of the pushover who does whatever she is told, and become an assertive individual. I have started experimenting with this and find that it is very successful. In order to achieve this goal I am currently working as an administrative assistant in a property management company in Beverly Hills. It is a long drive, made longer by traffic, but I have substantially increased my income from when I was working as a nanny.

A summary of a human life

From dressing up in identical outfits as my sister to wearing outfits that she wouldn’t be caught dead in, I have found that being myself and doing what makes me happy is really the way to go. I do like wearing things that are comfortable and serve a purpose. However, dressing up in funky/cool outfits is just so much fun. I am in a point in my life where I want to step out on my own and see what happens. Between sink and swim, I choose swim.